De Australische schrijver en essayist Brian Castro werd geboren op 16 januari 1950 in Hongkong. Zie ook alle tags voor Brian Castro op dit blog.
Uit: After China
« But on this night, at number 1,199, the famous philosopher was stuck. No aphorism came to him. Not even a crude one on rain and earth, semen and secretion.
What was worse, he had committed 1,198 aphorisms to memory. Unable to think of the next, he was also unable to recall the others.
He tried the Reverse Flying Duck position. No go. He assumed the Two Dancing Female Phoenix Birds posture. Nothing. The Dark Cicada Cleaving to a Tree. Emptiness. The Donkeys in the Third Moon of Spring. Not a word came to him. He looked at the young woman. He hadn?t really observed his partners before. It was a revelation. She was extremely beautiful. Her pale flesh and dark eyes delighted him. He tried the Fluttering Butterflies. She smiled indifferently. It was really more of a blankness. No philosophy at all. To think that he once had to breathe in the manner of the Tao, gnash his teeth, apply pressure to secret parts to hold back from the abyss of excess. He disengaged himself. Went outside into the next room.
On his table, the future magnum opus. The introduction was already written. For the first time he experienced a fear of not being able to go on. A terrifying vision of somebody else completing his work appeared before him: a ghost-writer, a supplementer stealing the sacred kernels of his words, the hard-won visions of his longevity. Some bastard making the most of hindsight.
He took a short walk in a nearby forest.
When he returned she was still there, sleeping composedly on her silks. He tried again. The Winding Dragon. The Pawing Horse. Nothing. Not a pithy thing. The Hounds of the Ninth Day of Autumn. Disaster. Becoming quite ill and feverish, he suddenly sat up and held her face in his hands.
‘Who are you?’ he demanded. ‘Why have you robbed me of everything I cherish?’
Her face was flushed.
She looked at him steadily and then said very softly: ‘I am the book you intend to write, the intention of which is jade resplendent. But writing is not jade.’
Brian Castro (Hongkong, 16 januari 1950)