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De Iers-Britse schrijfster Eimear McBride werd geboren in 1976 in Liverpool en groeide op in Tubbercurry, County Sligo en in Castlebar, County Mayo. Op 17-jarige leeftijd verhuisde zij naar Londen, waar zij drie jaar aan de toneelschool The Drama Centre studeerde. Als 27-jarige probeerde zij haar in slechts zes maanden geschreven romanmanuscript “A Girl Is a Half-formed Thing” aan diverse uitgevers te slijten. Jarenlang was dit geen succes, want hoewel de redacties de krachtige taal en inhoudelijke kwaliteiten prezen durfden zij het commerciële risico met een dergelijk grensoverschrijdend werk niet aan. De onafhankelijke, kleine uitgeverij Galley Beggar Press uit Norwich bracht in juni 2013 het boek wel op de markt. Het bestseller succes oversteeg echter de capaciteiten van de kleine uitgeverij, zodat reeds in april 2014 een paperback editie bij de grote Londense uitgeverij Faber & Faber verscheen. McBride ontving voor het boek o.a. de Geoffrey Faber Memorial Prize en de Baileys Women’s Prize for Fiction. Het beschrijft de ontwikkeling van een broer en een zus vanaf de arme kindertijd naar volwassenheid. De broer van de vertelster lijdt al op jonge leeftijd aan een hersentumor en zij probeert om hem te beschermen. De ouders zijn gewelddadig tegen hun kinderen. Er werd al snel een toneelstuk van het boek gemaakt. Dit werd zowel in 2014 uitgevoerd in het Dublin Theatre Festival als bij het het Edinburgh Fringe in 2015.
Uit: A Girl is a Half-Formed Thing
“See here this party. It’s a mad. I had never been. I have only seen and thought films were like that. Music hurting on the innards. Door. Lungs. People pouring noise out front back of this old house. Some glasses beakers. I have cans. In my bag. Where do I? Out them there no don’t put down or they’ll go you’ll be sorry. Money spent. I trup trup off behind her. Think I’m new and white. In the garden. In the wet. For grass still sucks it up all day. Where’s this? Just some fella I know she says. He said come and bring a friend. Him and other lads have this band. Oh. Brilliant. Good too. They squat here. Christ. What do I know? What do I know? People living mad life but I’m around it now. I can be in. I’m. What I’d say to those girls in school if. No. I won’t. Won’t be going back in there. I’m going just to say hello she says you stay here. And I sit under this tree while. What type’s it? Apple. Mortified at being alone. Drink up. Watch. She seeing them. Says I’m black now am I? Well then give us a kiss. She slather their hands on. Blankets wet full mouth smirking aren’t you pleased to see me? She knows all the right stuff. Right things done said brings the. Going house in. What is perfect on this lawn, there is no shame. She. Looking over her shoulder. Roll her eyes. You know what it means. I’m going. Off. Nod. Laughing me and she’ll tell later on whatever he has done.
I am fine sit and drink and watch. All this harlotting go full on. Twist to look like I’m in here not just sitting by myself. Lay in the grass. Foots trodding dance around. See up skirts. In trousers. Music pumping ground under my head. I think some poems I’ll write. About. Sights. Remember. This wood smell of. Damp and. Dandelions stain on my bare leg. Sip up my. Sip and slurp it drink. Think of being by myself. Here. In this stranger’s downstairs flat. That. Whirl. Some fella coming up. Do you mind if I sit he and who are you then? Who are you? Do I know you no I do not. I turn my head is very slow and. Some strange man he is to me. Some man with black hair combed strange like balding but not. It seems. Will I talk at all I will. He chatting my name and all those things. I falling into that. Suppose I am here on my own. Will you another? Thanks for that. Will hear him tell me he’s how old a lot oh God lotter than me. I am addling but good to be seen. It’s very good to be seen.
Hello there and one of these. You want some? Smoke. Never do. But will. It’s something else. No I don’t know how. But. Go on lassy you inhale and hold. That’ll do. That Jesus rips the tender throat out. Jesus give the eyes a very stream. He is laughing with at me but about my whirring head. I don’t like. Do. He lie beside. Stick his fingers in my hair. Aren’t you a lovely lovely thing. And talking to he’s talking still. I curling poems cannot listen. Smoke in again and in again. Feels hours and hours him and me. Our heads on a root. Benutted tree I see London. I see France. I can see your underpants. I hear him singing put his hand between my knees. Go way think I’m laughing. Spin the brain away from here. Ha you’re tickling. Don’t do please. Come on says he come on time to go to bed. Time for us to be out of this fet air. Where we going? Come on o human child. I singing oky ho-ky do-ky. Ha ha help me down from this wet earth. I’ll come. I’ll. Now I’ll come with you.”
Eimear McBride (Liverpool, 1976)